But I know myself, I'll be back in no time.

Time to try out wordpress. The App won me over.

To Dinagyang, or to not Dinagyang? Hm.

I have long wanted to discuss what resignation meant, exactly. In the workplace, it would mean cutting your ties with your employer. But on a different setting, it would mean giving up. One of the official definitions of this word is acceptance of something inescapable. Resignation. Finally accepting something for what it is. Submission. Could my leaving also mean that I gave up? I would like to think that I didn’t leave my old job just because I cannot handle what they were asking me to do and because I didn’t like some people. Because, honestly, I’m stumped. I cannot assure myself, or anyone, that I am 100% capable or could be capable, because I just stopped trying. My superiors, my colleagues, and my friends, always tell me that I deserve something better. But I can’t help but think that, in a way, I just gave up.

I finally tendered my resignation as Trade Marketing Coordinator last November 18. The last two years in the company was really full of different experiences, some, I never imagined I’d be able to survive, literally (intense plane ride, bomb scares, pedestrian crossing, etc) and figuratively. I never thought I was smart. I knew I was average. I was bad at math. And yet, some thought I always perform beyond what is expected.

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Last Friday was a good day. I was on fieldwork, Makati area. CK-Chinabank first, then the one opening in Insular, then Landmark, then SM Makati. I love that my work still allows me to roam around and let’s me have a semi-freedom kind of feel. Being in a familiar area had my confidence skyrocketing from trench to stratus level. I love that my stores are just a few minutes away from my old office. I love that I still have friends in AMC. I loved that I didn’t need a visitors ID to loiter in my old building. I love that I was able to work out relationships in the old office. I love having a best friend waiting for me in my old area. I loved that that best friend didn’t judge me when I shared what happened the last time we saw each other. Thank you, Ne. Yes, mahaba lang hair ko talaga. Good thing you worked everything out too with that/those girl/s. Lapit ka na din umalis. Good luck to us.

I'm starting to have fun in my new workplace. I like the people and I think I like what I'm doing. Hopefully, this will continue for a long time.

Went home around 2 am last night. Dad picked me an my sister up. So, so, weird.

I didn't like what I did, I think I was able to counter the advances a little bit, by trying to poke you with my pencil, sliding down the couch so you can't hug me from behind. But, I liked being hugged. I should've told you bluntly not to do whatever you were doing. Too bad I was taught to care. I only wish that I was bold enough to ask what's up with you. You confuse me. I promise, I would have told you that I didn't like you. Because I really don't. We are friends. I guess I just missed being paid attention to. I feel guilty, when I shouldn't be.

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And a week had gone by. I can't wait to feel like I'm really part of this. I can't wait to prove that this was a right move for me. And I can't wait to earn more. Argh, credit cards.

"Our choices brought us here, and I do not regret any of it".

This was the only line that I have salvaged from the vows I have made up last night, while trying to pull up my blanket and transforming into a curled ball. For the life of me, I do not remember the rest of what could have been a good verse for my vows when I get married. Damn, Id, for not paying enough attention.

Product Review.

Effective. Lost 2.5lbs in 3 days.

I should sell this.

Weddings make me cry. Reading YES magazine makes me cry. Watching PreNup videos make me cry. It's not PMS, and I'm sure they're tears of joy.

My boyfriend would go through the eye of the needle just to make me happy. He may complain a lot, make excuses, stall and everything, but we both know he's faking it. I love him.

I am still in awe when I think of the 7 years that we have been together. We've grown old together, and our relationship has matured. We don't need the minute by minute reports HS couples usually look for. We know we are in each other's thoughts throughout the day without having to confirm it. Sometimes, I admit that I get bored, imagine myself being single, but at the end of the day, I can only see my future with him.

I can't wait to have my own wedding. Make a prenup video. Stick my prenup and wedding pictures in a scrapbook. All of these, will have only have meaning if they're with you.

Love you. 

Remember: Grumpiness is next to ugliness. Ugliness ka kasi that's why you're grumpy. BTW, I also want you to remember that: Being bitter doesn't make you prettier. Hehehe. Sorry. Yihee, gagayahin nanaman niya ako. Next time, quote mo ako ha?

I don't care if magaling ka magsulat. Wala din ako pakialam if yung damit at sapatos na suot mo e mas mahal pa sa isang buwan na sweldo ko. Wala talaga ako pakialam, kasi di naman halata. Ikaw kasi nagsuot e. Sana sa ukay ka nalang bumili. Ganun lang din ang effect, teh.

Hay buhay. Natawa talaga ako sa'yo. In fair, di ako nagalit. As in, natawa lang talaga ako sa'yo. Inggitterang echosera ka. Move on, pwede?

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On a happier and lighter note, the IS Christmas party wasn't all that a success, since we had to shell out money from our wallets, instead of profiting from the event. However, we still had fun. Some had too much, i think. ) Easy on the alcohol next time, guys.

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Welcome, cheap December! Here's to a whole month of NO SALARY (para student lang). 

Merry Christmas!